My feelings are mixed. It is a good job doing what I enjoy at a reasonable salary. Still it is a departure from friends and family and this big mitten I call home. This may have been easy to pick up three years ago or even two; but right now it seems almost foreign. Can a mind be set in entropy? I find that I want things to be more clear and systematic but there is this haze of unorganized uncertainty.
Most first days will cause this feeling. What should I wear? Will I make friends? I am accustomed to that feeling. This goes beyond that and is focused more on leaving the U.S. To this I tell myself that Hemmingway, Fitzgerald, Maugham, Lawrence, and Hughes all left home and we are all better for it. As if I were in the Godfather, I too have left, “but they keep pulling me back.” The “they” in this case is Michigan.
Over the last three years I have grown accustomed to staying home and building memories with friends. There has been slight tug of adventure and wonder of what city I might be in or plane to be on if I were still in Tradeshow World. Well, we will soon find out. And those memories with good friends will fuel me until we see each other again when I am certain a long litany of Canadian jokes to join them.
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